They say comparison is the thief of joy. And I keep thinking about that lately, but not in the way that you might expect. Because I'm not comparing myself to other people. I'm comparing my life to a previous version of my own life.
I'm comparing myself to the moments before. Before years wore me thin. Before life was quite so complicated or difficult. Before I felt loss and sandpaper on the soul.
But part of this human thing means we can't go back to a previous life. We have no choice but to walk through the hard times.
And I know I can do it. I know that.
And I know I have friends and family who are by my side. I know that.
And I know I have a Creator who cares about the broken hearts. I know that.
But the slow pace where I process sadness and sorrow can't be sped up. So while I'm sitting here and wishing my way back to earlier years, don't rush me along. And please don't think I'm fine because I'm laughing and seem happy and got dressed this morning. Because difficult times have come and the walk through is a winding and weaving journey.
But I know I can do it. I know that. I do.
And I also know...you my friends who I love. I am thankful for you. I am. If I can't show it how you might like to see it, please know that I am still grateful. You are the ones who help me keep my head up. I love you all. XOXO.